Star Wars or Dinosaurs? Which one do you like better? You know thats not that hard a question to answer....but noooo you just have to make your birthday present a huge ordeal lol. I'm not quite sure how I'm going to do it but this painting has to be done by tomorrow morning before 12 so that it will get to you before Wednesday. I'm excited for it! I'm sorry and upset that I won't be there to give you a birthday kiss, Christmas kiss and of course New Years kiss! I guess I'll just have to make up for it when we get back.
Its been the first day away from school and I've quickly realized why I hate living at home and immediately wanted to come to Illinois. As much as I completely love my family, its hard to spend more than a week with them all together. This morning I texted you once i got up and was waiting and waiting like a dork for you to text me and at 11 I got a sleepy face text! You're do freaking cute! I also talked to Robert today and Im going to try to put your name in to a guy who edits for the DateLine in NYC.
I talked to you tonight and you made a huge mistake in saying over Facebook messaging. "Don't worry about being clingy. I love you!"
Just wait to see how annoying I'll get now!
Monday, February 17, 2014
Thursday, February 6, 2014
12/12/13
I just got home a few hours ago. I miss you. I keep thinking I can just call you and see if I can come over. I could. But that would be a long way away.
Its so weird being home. I never realized how much time we spent together until I have a whole month away from you. A little part of me hopes that you will come and surprise me just like Paul surpassed Jae but i know neither one of us have money for that (because its all spent on Starbucks). But i can keep telling myself that so I keep calm. Every one keeps telling me to enjoy the time that I have at home and away from school work. Obviously I'm over exaggerating but it will be hard without you here. I don't really have a lot to do here but I'm hoping we both find time to either Skype or call each other and maybe have a Bible study.
This morning was just the craziest array of emotions that swept over me when you left. My nose started tingling and my face hurt from coldness and tiredness ness ness. I immediately found myself clinging and kissing you and i didn't care who saw. Although i don't know who would be up that early anyway. Your little beanie made me laugh because you looked so freaking cute and tough with you leather jacket on! It was different saying goodbye to you during the Summer because I was just starting getting to know you. This time I've realized I don't really know what its like apart from you; from this amazing person who completely 180 degrees turned my semester into a life- changing one.
On the ride home I felt really bad because it seems as if every sentence I was saying to Danielle started with "Dylan". At one point she started sleeping and I though about our past semester with all the confusion and all the life- changing moments and especially about the little romantic ones that came out of last night on the monogram. And I jut grinned and felt the joy I always get when I see you.
Its crazy to see how much someone can change another. Once I got home I just found myself making similar cheesy and charismatic jokes that you make all the time. I immediately started to act and talk the same compassionate way you talk to me and to people who are working to make your coffee awesome. You've made me a compassionate people person. No matter how upset I was, I found myself smiling despite you not being next to me.
It will be weird in your absence but I'll still see you (via Skype) and hear your voice over the phone and to know you're missing me too :). I know in the long run we will learn form this and grow together in our relationship. But yeah, I'm going to stop being sappy and I guess I'll call you tomorrow :) <3
Its so weird being home. I never realized how much time we spent together until I have a whole month away from you. A little part of me hopes that you will come and surprise me just like Paul surpassed Jae but i know neither one of us have money for that (because its all spent on Starbucks). But i can keep telling myself that so I keep calm. Every one keeps telling me to enjoy the time that I have at home and away from school work. Obviously I'm over exaggerating but it will be hard without you here. I don't really have a lot to do here but I'm hoping we both find time to either Skype or call each other and maybe have a Bible study.
This morning was just the craziest array of emotions that swept over me when you left. My nose started tingling and my face hurt from coldness and tiredness ness ness. I immediately found myself clinging and kissing you and i didn't care who saw. Although i don't know who would be up that early anyway. Your little beanie made me laugh because you looked so freaking cute and tough with you leather jacket on! It was different saying goodbye to you during the Summer because I was just starting getting to know you. This time I've realized I don't really know what its like apart from you; from this amazing person who completely 180 degrees turned my semester into a life- changing one.
On the ride home I felt really bad because it seems as if every sentence I was saying to Danielle started with "Dylan". At one point she started sleeping and I though about our past semester with all the confusion and all the life- changing moments and especially about the little romantic ones that came out of last night on the monogram. And I jut grinned and felt the joy I always get when I see you.
Its crazy to see how much someone can change another. Once I got home I just found myself making similar cheesy and charismatic jokes that you make all the time. I immediately started to act and talk the same compassionate way you talk to me and to people who are working to make your coffee awesome. You've made me a compassionate people person. No matter how upset I was, I found myself smiling despite you not being next to me.
It will be weird in your absence but I'll still see you (via Skype) and hear your voice over the phone and to know you're missing me too :). I know in the long run we will learn form this and grow together in our relationship. But yeah, I'm going to stop being sappy and I guess I'll call you tomorrow :) <3
12/11/13
Its happened again. I've become so attached to a person, to some one I truly love and now I have to have them torn out of my hands.
You've learned from experience today that the day before I leave a place I've been for awhile, I get disgustingly upset.
I am going to miss you. I already do. I'm going to miss seeing you everyday. Im going to miss our subtle inside jokes. The way your body feels against mine when I hug you like a 6 year- old. Or the way you smell when I nuzzle beside your neck. Im going to miss your smile and the way it lights up my day. And the way it feels to slowly run my fingers through your hair and slightly caress your ear. And the way your lips feel soft and your mustache so prickly when you kiss me. I'm going to miss seeing your eyes light up when you say those magic words: "I love you". I am surely going to miss the ay your eyes melt my soul like a cool mint flavor. But most of all, I'm going to miss you (and Mr. Hulk).
It sucks because i never want to leave you. All day today I was a bit upset and down so i apologize. I just love you so much that I NEVER want to lose you.
I love the way you look me in the eyes and be a man, I love the way you don't care what anyone thinks because we are a cute couple! I love you! And I am going to miss you saying "You should stay over here tonight…. I want to marry you" (i really do!).
I want to make sure I stay in contact with you every single day this break. Because it scares me, a lot can happen in a month. But I can't wait to start another year with you by my side, I am so thankful and I love you I wish i could show it sometimes.
I know i am going to miss you because I hate goodbyes, especially the person I think the world go :) Im going to make you so many things over break Ill max out your room.
Anyway, I'll get to bed now, I have to wake up early. Jut a quick side note: When/ if we get marries. ALWAYS kiss me goodnight.
Ps. What i especially loved about today was who you brought me up to the monogram and played "If its the beaches" Our first kiss. In the same place it happened. With the first guy i truly loved. "I am going to miss you"- and thats when the flood gates opened.
You've learned from experience today that the day before I leave a place I've been for awhile, I get disgustingly upset.
I am going to miss you. I already do. I'm going to miss seeing you everyday. Im going to miss our subtle inside jokes. The way your body feels against mine when I hug you like a 6 year- old. Or the way you smell when I nuzzle beside your neck. Im going to miss your smile and the way it lights up my day. And the way it feels to slowly run my fingers through your hair and slightly caress your ear. And the way your lips feel soft and your mustache so prickly when you kiss me. I'm going to miss seeing your eyes light up when you say those magic words: "I love you". I am surely going to miss the ay your eyes melt my soul like a cool mint flavor. But most of all, I'm going to miss you (and Mr. Hulk).
It sucks because i never want to leave you. All day today I was a bit upset and down so i apologize. I just love you so much that I NEVER want to lose you.
I love the way you look me in the eyes and be a man, I love the way you don't care what anyone thinks because we are a cute couple! I love you! And I am going to miss you saying "You should stay over here tonight…. I want to marry you" (i really do!).
I want to make sure I stay in contact with you every single day this break. Because it scares me, a lot can happen in a month. But I can't wait to start another year with you by my side, I am so thankful and I love you I wish i could show it sometimes.
I know i am going to miss you because I hate goodbyes, especially the person I think the world go :) Im going to make you so many things over break Ill max out your room.
Anyway, I'll get to bed now, I have to wake up early. Jut a quick side note: When/ if we get marries. ALWAYS kiss me goodnight.
Ps. What i especially loved about today was who you brought me up to the monogram and played "If its the beaches" Our first kiss. In the same place it happened. With the first guy i truly loved. "I am going to miss you"- and thats when the flood gates opened.
12/10/13
"I will be back with singles." "Make sure you get two!"
"Will you Marry me?" I've never thought about arraign and having my own kids (because they bug you at Starbucks) since I have met you. I'm really sorry ahead of time for all the scribbles, its 1am and Im falling asleep as I write.
I cannot believe that this semester is over with. Don't get me wrong, its fantastic knowing no more studying for an entire month. Coming back in the Spring to see you is all that is keeping me going to dorm 13.
I always like to recap sometimes when the semester ends but instead I'm going to thank you! For an amazing semester filled with wonder, joy, laughter and mostly love.
"I love you so very much and I can't wait to touch you in the Fall." As frustrating as this semester was, you definitely made it my favorite just because of Sept 15, 2013.
I'll Thank you more tomorrow when I'm not dying of exhaustion.
"Will you Marry me?" I've never thought about arraign and having my own kids (because they bug you at Starbucks) since I have met you. I'm really sorry ahead of time for all the scribbles, its 1am and Im falling asleep as I write.
I cannot believe that this semester is over with. Don't get me wrong, its fantastic knowing no more studying for an entire month. Coming back in the Spring to see you is all that is keeping me going to dorm 13.
I always like to recap sometimes when the semester ends but instead I'm going to thank you! For an amazing semester filled with wonder, joy, laughter and mostly love.
"I love you so very much and I can't wait to touch you in the Fall." As frustrating as this semester was, you definitely made it my favorite just because of Sept 15, 2013.
I'll Thank you more tomorrow when I'm not dying of exhaustion.
12/9/13
I have to make this journal sober short because I have both Old Testament (with you) and Philosophy exams tomorrow. I hate exam days just because both of us are so grumpy and irritated that the littlest thing can set us off. It scares the crap out of me that in two days, not only am I going to leave you for a month but that we are 3/8 of the way through our college education. In two years I'll be thrown into the abyss of the real world.
12/8/14
My pen it about to run out but I'm going to go as far as I can with it.
Its crazy what a simply, deep conversation can impact a relationship. Although though subjects like being a man or "feeling like I'm being raped" or maybe going too fast and growing stagnant in our relationship can can be. This morning when I saw you all that was on my mind was how I wanted to marry you and have kids and grow old with you. I saw my husband before me because I fell asleep with the words, "I really want this relationship to work out too." in my mind. We will grow a lot together over break, I can see it. I'm excited for it! I don't take this relationship lightly (obviously) anymore and to know that you feel the same way is absolutely incredible to me. I am absolutely unalterably in love with you. I want to grow with you. Hold your hand while i dance obnoxiously in church. Have you buy me tattoos ;) And look up into your crows feted green havens and know you love me as much as i do you. Than you for picking me up from the put today after you read me children;s and Bob Dylan books at Barnes and Noble.. I think you are a great story reader.
Its crazy what a simply, deep conversation can impact a relationship. Although though subjects like being a man or "feeling like I'm being raped" or maybe going too fast and growing stagnant in our relationship can can be. This morning when I saw you all that was on my mind was how I wanted to marry you and have kids and grow old with you. I saw my husband before me because I fell asleep with the words, "I really want this relationship to work out too." in my mind. We will grow a lot together over break, I can see it. I'm excited for it! I don't take this relationship lightly (obviously) anymore and to know that you feel the same way is absolutely incredible to me. I am absolutely unalterably in love with you. I want to grow with you. Hold your hand while i dance obnoxiously in church. Have you buy me tattoos ;) And look up into your crows feted green havens and know you love me as much as i do you. Than you for picking me up from the put today after you read me children;s and Bob Dylan books at Barnes and Noble.. I think you are a great story reader.
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