I just got home a few hours ago. I miss you. I keep thinking I can just call you and see if I can come over. I could. But that would be a long way away.
Its so weird being home. I never realized how much time we spent together until I have a whole month away from you. A little part of me hopes that you will come and surprise me just like Paul surpassed Jae but i know neither one of us have money for that (because its all spent on Starbucks). But i can keep telling myself that so I keep calm. Every one keeps telling me to enjoy the time that I have at home and away from school work. Obviously I'm over exaggerating but it will be hard without you here. I don't really have a lot to do here but I'm hoping we both find time to either Skype or call each other and maybe have a Bible study.
This morning was just the craziest array of emotions that swept over me when you left. My nose started tingling and my face hurt from coldness and tiredness ness ness. I immediately found myself clinging and kissing you and i didn't care who saw. Although i don't know who would be up that early anyway. Your little beanie made me laugh because you looked so freaking cute and tough with you leather jacket on! It was different saying goodbye to you during the Summer because I was just starting getting to know you. This time I've realized I don't really know what its like apart from you; from this amazing person who completely 180 degrees turned my semester into a life- changing one.
On the ride home I felt really bad because it seems as if every sentence I was saying to Danielle started with "Dylan". At one point she started sleeping and I though about our past semester with all the confusion and all the life- changing moments and especially about the little romantic ones that came out of last night on the monogram. And I jut grinned and felt the joy I always get when I see you.
Its crazy to see how much someone can change another. Once I got home I just found myself making similar cheesy and charismatic jokes that you make all the time. I immediately started to act and talk the same compassionate way you talk to me and to people who are working to make your coffee awesome. You've made me a compassionate people person. No matter how upset I was, I found myself smiling despite you not being next to me.
It will be weird in your absence but I'll still see you (via Skype) and hear your voice over the phone and to know you're missing me too :). I know in the long run we will learn form this and grow together in our relationship. But yeah, I'm going to stop being sappy and I guess I'll call you tomorrow :) <3
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