There are days in my life that i will look back on remember each day, every moment, and every word. This is not one of those days. haha! But today you did ask me if i was homesick to which I immediately answered no.
wait.
me?
Not homesick?
In Illinois?
That just hit me!
I am usually that person that no matter how far you take me from my family, I will always be homesick.
Earlier in ou relationship you told me how you were afraid that Jersey was becoming my safe zone; that it was the one thing that was holding me back from following that God- given potential that you first fell in love with.
That sentence was the thing that ran throughout my head the next two months and beyond. I started to think of New Jersey as my home and only my home. It wasn't my safe zone. I am not quite ready to move away from it yet but i know that my future family means so much more to me than that.
I know my family and friends will try to hold me back but i need to trust that God knows what he is doing.
So when you asked me that homesick question today I was curious why i answered so quickly. I mean i've spent the past 19 Thanksgivings with my family. But i figured out why i said no.
You are my new home.
How can i be homesick when i am home?
But the difference isn't that you are holding me back form my perseverance, you are encouraging it. Thank you for making me feel that home that i didn't think existed.
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