12/1/13

I never thought I'd hate December 1st as much as I do now.
A heads up: I'm not in the greatest of moods. I hate Liberty. I really do.
This week has really made me realize that. I loved being bake to fall asleep in your arms without someone counting the seconds or being able to wake up and kiss your stinky breath. Or even put my hand on you cheek and watch as a slight smile would come across your face. I hate that I can't look into your eyes and tell you how much I love you,a dn you kss me on the cheek without people staring at us like we're in jr. high again. I hate it.
I love you very much. And may I just say 13 hours in the car with you felt like two. Even when I need to do homework I felt like I was wasting my time because I just wanted to talk to you. I know this is jumping to conclusions but I love how open we've become this week. We've matured so much in our conversation. Even when talking about wedding and engagement rings (i LOVED that). I've always been one never to know if i would get marries and the thought that it may be to you makes me jump off the walls.
Thank you for being that amazing , even when i brought up a tough subject of your past and who was in that past. Im not going to lie, my heart was ripped out, almost as much as it was with Brandon. But I trust you and know I should never be jealous. Please just watch your step with her. I want you to influence her not the other way around.